…And my heart was almost one of them, almost.
Hi there guys,
First, I wish to apologise for making you worried, well, some of you who were nice enough to. I assure you though that there is nothing majorly wrong with me other than my poor heart that was threatened of death during this last Sousenkyou. Believe me, if something that bad does happen to me, I have sisters and a brother to let you all know that this is IT – No more BG! For now though, it was just a matter of the heart.
Now, before you go jumping to conclusions about what exactly, or who, made me like this, I have to dump cold water on you by saying that it has nothing to do with any Top 10, let alone Top 40. No, my attempted killer in the NMB48 fans that oh so butchered my NaMBa Oshii Maachun – Ogasawara Mayu! That’s right, Maachun’s ranking is the reason I almost gave up on this crazy Fandom! It wasn’t the fact that our representative is SASHIKO! Despite that fact alone being all kinds of wrong that Sasshi is now the rep of all Idols in Japan (What? She is at the top of AKB which is at the top of the Idol Business so she is the one that is supposed to be an idol for all the dreamers out there hence all the wrongness of it) Maachun’s ranking is what really got to me the most this fifth time around.
To really grasp how un-fair her position is, let’s go basic. Think of Sayanee’s position, then Milky’s. Think of NMB48 during the beginning when these three were considered the Ace of Triangle as they would appear in shows mostly the three of them. Think of all that love that seemingly is targeted towards Maachun during N theatre performances. I am sure I am not the only one who gets the vibe that she is loved the most while watching them, seriously! Think of the girls’ current personalities in NMB48. Then think of the three’s (SayaMilkychun) ranking in this 5th Senbatsu Sousenkyou.
Now tell me that that gap is not the most unfair of things.
Here is something I tried to do and I wished I shouldn’t even ever have thought of doing it in the first place – I tried to imagine NMB without Maachun.
DO NOT ATTEMPT TO DO IT!
Seriously, how? Why?!! Her ranking doesn’t make sense to me whatsoever! No matter how I think of it there just isn’t sense to it. From an already disappointing 60th last year to a measly 54th this year! How?! Why?!! I don’t get it?! Someone explain to me what Sayanee or Milky have that places them boundaries ahead Maachun?! I just can’t figure it out! Someone who should be ashamed of themselves once said to me that it’s because people prefer Idolish girls! To this logic I say – HUH?!!! Maachun is a comedian but she is an Idol comedian. She has what Idols have (Great dancer and performer – so much so she is the replacer of SayaMily when they are absent – I still can’t stretch how important his fact is, Cuter than 40% of the senbatsu rankers, has the bro-some powers of Sashiko – in that she really gets easily along with other girls) and on top of all that she is incredibly funny – NMB is supposed to be about the funny! And then there is all that Maachun chanting during stages!
Where is the logic of her ranking in all of this?! Let me point out who the Center is. Let me ask why Sayanee is ahead of Milky. Maachun not Idolish enough?! Don’t even…God, the more I think about it the more I feel like shutting myself in once more until next year or something!
And the gap between her and SayaMilky is not all. I understand Nana being ahead of her because of her exposure in that weekly show she had until last year so I guessed that her being fourth I could handle – Not that she was fourth, she was fifth because Ainyan got the better of her. This year I was sure she would at least close the gap between her and Nana and be a true fourth but did that happen?! Hell no! In comes not one, not two, not three but four, FOUR!!!!!!!! PREVIOUS NONE-RANKED GIRLS going passed her. THEY ARE ALL AHEAD OF HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Akarin, I am happy for because I have always wanted her to rank. I still think of her as the centre for Zetsumetsu Kurokami Shoujo and not Milky. But then there was that thing that got her booted for half a year which saw her not ranking that last Sousenkyou. And so I wouldn’t have thought her to be ahead of Maachun but viola, she is. But as I said, Akarin I can understand. But the other three?!! Keicchi? Fuuchan?! Shuu?!!!!!!!!!!!! I now understand that meme of ‘mind blowing’ and its real meaning. Forget Fan-ism, some things are just not right naturally and Maachun being the last ranked NMB48 girl is most definitely one of them!
And so there you have it my dearest readers. It wasn’t Sashiko being the Centre of the world that means the world to me second only to the world of yuri, that almost made me quit this world of Idols, no, it wasn’t that. It was Maachun – Ogasawara Mayu’s ranking that almost did it! One thing is for sure though, I have lost hope in some of my fellow fans of this fandom and my love for the Family has fallen by almost 60%. Now it’s almost purely on my Oshiis to keep be grounded in this fandom, and the yuri of course. I haven’t watched an AKB show in like…forever…(Not since that episode on AKBINGO). An HKT show without Sakura is dead data on my HDD, I only screen through Geinin now…Everything is just so.
And all because of Maachun’s ranking!
If anyone can explain her ranking to me please, try!
Not all was bad though…
Yukirin, my Kami Oshii, is still at the top there. Really, I am very happy for her placing. Virtually she did not move at all since all happened was that the Top 4 just shuffled around. I love her but that does not mean I am blinded by the love I have for her. I knew that she would be behind Mayuyu and Yuko. Let’s be honest, Yuko is just out there. She was already a model and actress even before she was in her teens so her presence was already vast. She has that aura that is just so un-deniable. Yuko is just Centre material period. As for Mayuyu, here is where my feelings kind of coincide with my Oshii’s. Mayuyu has just been anointed as the successor to the throne. I don’t think even Yukirin would be very happy about taking first place when her girl Mayuyu, who has just been named IT, comes in second to her. I just can’t see her being happy about it, even I wouldn’t. This is the reason why I actually was hoping Mayuyu would be 1st this year. Can you guys think of the shame she felt standing there as 3rd when she is the new Face? Can you feel her pain at thinking that she isn’t worthy?! Some people just have no hearts. As for Sasshi, I have to be frank here – Sasshi just went and over-stepped her bounds. There is order in the Universe and Sasshi being Centre is against this order. I know fans of hers will take this as booze to their party and I wish them well and congratulations but Sashiko is just not meant to be Centre, especially of an Idol group. Can we just think back to what the word IDOL actually means?! Apply Sashiko to this explanation and you will see what I mean. So she did wonders (Unseen wonders) for HKT48, so she is great at variety. What does that have to do with being an Idol? And so I am happy for Yukirin at her ranking and I apologise but it was also because Sasshi beat all the Top three even Yuko. If she had only taken over Yukirin, something might have been questionable there but since she took over completely, there is just one conclusion. Also the fact that Yukirin literally spat on all those wishlists that saw her fall out of the Kamis (I still can’t believe those Dudes actually ranked her out!!!) she still remained a the top of the pyramid. The world just want to see her at the front, ignore the management. And so she remained at the top. I mean, someone has to light the shadows the new Centre is bound to bring!
Then there comes my 2nd most lovable girl of the Family – Rena. Going into Kami 8 was a feat worthy of a feast! I am not one of those who seem to have a beef with the WMatsui raking wars because as long as they are together, as is with Mayuki, which they are, both of them, then all is right with the world. The only ship ranking that would beat those two is the YukiRena one. but despite the teasing of the preliminaries, we did not get it. Oh well, this is the best. Two for one since we would not have gotten WMatsui or Mayuki otherwise. Rena’s 7th place was delicious indeed. I am pretty sure if it was still Kami 7, the internet would have a field day with this ranking. But since it’s Kami 8 now, well…
And lastly but most definitely not least, here we have my HKT48 Imo-Oshii – Sakura – Miyawaki Sakura. Not only did she move up in ranks but she did so with such a huge margin that literally cut her last ranking in half! That’s right fellas, Sakura-tan moved up 20 something places from last year. And all this when she was a measly 61st in the prelims! Heh! I guess you guys really took my threat very seriously. I warned you that if Sakura-tan is not the one trailing Sasshi, I would…do something unpleasant. But you went off and made sure of that so you are excused this time around ^^. And what a good job you did! Sakura-tan moved from 47th last year (And being the only HKT member to rank at the time) to an eye-popping Undergirls’s placing of 26th!! At least core HKT fans know what is right. More evidence of this is the fact that Haruppi was the one trailing Sakura (as it should be) and that Meru and Mio also ranked. And better yet, these last two are right around Maachun, with Meru actually being right next to her in the 55th position. I hope there is something of the two in the Future Girls’ PV Kukuku.
As for my other Oshi from NaMBa, I already wrote my thoughts on her. But I will just drive the point home of how I can’t see the logic in her placing, especially when the other NMB girls’ rankings are taken into consideration.
And I am a bit guiltily happy as once again the wishers were put in there place. Those wishers who had Milky beating Sayanee by a huge margin, sometimes even placing Milky in the Kamis!
- 14 – Yamamoto Sayaka
- 15 – Watanabe Miyuki
HA! Don’t laugh me.
Any way, yeah, this is why I have been away for a while. i had turned into a Hikikomori thanks to you Japanese voters and your fake love! (We foreigners don’t count because we simply can’t pour that much cash into tickets – We be poor tinkers)
But fear not, I am back now ^^. My heart is not 100% yet though and I have a feeling that…Oh well, we shall see. But thank you for keeping the site company despite me not posting anything. Hits haven’t fallen below 1K so I am thankful that you still waited for me.